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Wednesday, May 28th, 2008
7:19 pm
As a fellow mod (of bleed_me_skinny) and avid lj’er for over 4 years I’m letting you know that visualgirly was in my community and when she started to post spam like on her journal. I mean like 10/15 posts a day about it and this is a direct quote from her info “I am a Prothinspoer... I am in love with visualization and thinspiration to keep myself skinny forever... Prothinspo.com is my guide to my lifestyle. I am a person who is always on the hunt for new celebrity gossip and diet tips.” Need more proof that she is a troll? Her lj is far less then a year old; she has over 1,000 friends and is spamming around 650 communities.

I have allot of friends on lj and everyone I know in many communities are very sick of her. I noticed that she was in your community and would just like to let you know the kind of person she is. She makes personal attacks to people if they post pics, and all she does is plug that stupid site that tells one how to get an eating disorder.

I am sick of seeing her everywhere I go and so are many of my friends.

Just make sure if you delete her posts you mark them as spam!

Just a warning, tell your friends…if it were up to me and many people I know she would be shut down like all the other trolls.

♠ Kelly

If anyone would like to join my community feel free….its a troll free zone. But if you join…post loads please :)
Tuesday, October 30th, 2007
9:42 pm
 I'm looking for the ana food community. I had it awhile back. It list snack ideas, recipes...ect.
Anyone know where it is?

Oh and I might as well ask, What's the lowest calorie instant coffee? I've been looking around for a few days and wondered if anyone knew of a few brands =)
9:41 pm
 I'm looking for the ana food community. I had it awhile back. It list snack ideas, recipes...ect.
Anyone know where it is?

Oh and I might as well ask, What's the lowest calorie instant coffee? I've been looking around for a few days and wondered if anyone knew of a few brands =)
Monday, January 29th, 2007
7:42 pm
//at first she was
Hi. I just joined this community tonight. I used to have an ED then I was forced into "recovery" for a year... which resulted in gaining a lot of weight. (gross.)  It helps so much to have the encouragement of others. I'm moving out in march, but i just couldn't wait that long. Lots of luck, loves! [Ps. music is my distraction of choice...]

Name: [m]ae
Age: nineteen
Height: 5'4"
Cw: 150
Lw: 117
Hw: 155
STG: 146 by February 10th
LTG: 116
Thursday, December 14th, 2006
9:35 am
Red Bull
Does anyone notice that they lose weight if they drink red bull? I've noticed that I lose weight if I drink it and then I gain weight when I don't drink it...
I'm still hovering around 130 - 133. I need to lose 10 lbs by the end of March. Any suggestions? I don't want to slow my metabolism down but I think I might have already. So, how do you people lose weight and still retain energy and your memory? I find that if I don't eat a lot, I start to forget things and I get SO tired. Does this happen to anyone else?
Anyway, I guess I'll set a STG for Feb. 28th of 125 and a LTG for March 30th of 120.

Current Mood: frustrated
Thursday, November 16th, 2006
1:37 am
114 lbs!!!!! I reached my STG!!!!!

I never thought I would get to this weight again, but I got up from a nap this afternoon, weighed myself, and there it was!

I'm worried that I'll slip up now, though. I mean, I kind of already have... I'm eating a piece of pizza for supper, but I've been working on that one piece for over two hours and am not even half finished yet.

Now I have to set a new goal... I know that if I set it where I want (98 lbs) then my family and friends will freak and I'll probably end up shipped off to the hospital again and lose my job. That's what really really sucks about them having put me through rehab so many times. But I'm not ready to quit yet... So I think my new STG is going to be 109. That's not a lot of weight lost, I know, but that's kind of the point. I need to do this as gradually as possible so that people don't freak, and I need to be able to gauge where they're comfortable with me being. The second anyone mentions "hospital" to me, I need to be ready to stop and chill for a bit before losing more weight.

Damn. I've never had to be so intentionally deceptive about this before. I feel a bit like I'm on the cusp of choosing the disorder or my family/friends. I know I'm an ass, but I want to choose the disorder.

Current Mood: excited
Monday, November 13th, 2006
1:31 pm
Looking for good Thinspiration pics. Anyone who sends me one (please try to stay away from the regularly circulated pics) will get an autographed pic drawn by me.

Here's a sample of my art:

Not the best.. there are some... ew, really bad lines on that, but if you give me a good thinspiration pic and some parameters I'll personalize something for you. It might not be perfect (probably far from it judging by that pic), but I'll do my best.

Any takers? I'd rather be drawing than eating, so please help me distract myself!!!!
3:21 am
I lost seven and then gained back 3. Anyone want to fast with me this week?

Also, does anyone here use laxatives? I'm thinking about it but I don't know how much to take, any suggestions?
Sunday, November 12th, 2006
7:42 pm
Went running again today. I made myself go even though it was raining. Still did all my toning exercises but it doesn't feel like enough. I think I'll do them all again tonight. I need to double how far I run. It just isn't enough.

I suck at eating. I hosted "tea time" with my german roommates today. Drank coffee and cookies. Feeling really fat right now. I wish it would be out of my system. I love when i'm COMPLETELY empty. I love lying in bed in the morning when i'm totally empty because my hip and rib bones stick out a lot. I know it's only cuz i'm lying down but it doesn't happen when i'm full and it just feels so nice. I just wish i looked the same once I stood up.

I'll try to do much better eating-wise tomorrow. I'll try to double my exercise as well. Hopefully it's not raining again.

Hope you are all doing well!

I'll write back tomorrow.

Current Mood: full
Saturday, November 11th, 2006
8:20 pm
Today went okay for me. Food eaten so far: 1 serving of Cheez-its and a small apple. I had to eat supper out with my da tonight, so I ate half and then purged it as soon as I got home. Now I've got out the chips, but I made sure the buy a kind that I can't eat very many of due to the strong flavor.

I didn't do so hot at excercising at work. I usually try to do as much lifting as possible and volunteer to hold the leashes of the strong, hard to control dogs that require a lot of muscle in my classes. During one of my down-times between teaching, there was a page for customer carry-out at the front of the store. This usually means fourty pound bags of dog/cat food or kitty litter. I walked myself toward the front doors to take the page (even though it's not my job, I try to do it as much as possible), but I turned myself around and didn't answer it. I should have. I regret it. The reason I dropped the page was that I've already been diagnosed with osteopenia, and I have nightmares about falling on our hard, slick floors at work and breaking something. How f'ing embarassing would that be?

I tried to make up for my decision by spending my down-time pretending to be busy by walking around the store as quickly as would look normal.

Doing better than I thought I would be in general, though. I'm not really seeing it in the numbers yet (only eight pounds since early October), but I'm getting back into the swing of my disorder. I'm expecting to see more drastic changes soon.
6:19 pm
Soreness = Amazing
I'm pretty proud of myself today. The weather was cold, windy, and rainy but I still made it out for a run! I just thought to myself..."so what if the weather is bad....do u want to be fat or beautifully thin?" I just got my ass up and did it! Go me for day 3!! I've also kept up all of my toning exercies and stretches. Gotta keep sore! It's kind of pathetic though that I got sore from doing girl push-ups yesterday. My upper body is so WEAK! Gotta work on that...

(p.s. check out Nicole's arms in my icon pic - AMAZING! I feel like she's looking at me saying, "come on....you could look like this if you wanted to...)

Foodwise, havn't been doing especially great but not especially terrible either. Gotta fix that soon as well.

Hope you are all doing well in your ventures against the evils of fat!


Current Mood: cheerful
Friday, November 10th, 2006
2:13 pm
I love running!
I love how exercise makes you feel. It makes you feel so accomplished and happy! I'm really glad I've gotten back into working out. I went running yesterday and today (only 1 mile each day cuz i'm easing into it) and I did tons of toning exercies i.e. situps, leg lifts/extentions etc.

I love being sore! Do you guys love that feeling too? It allows me to feel the muscle on my body instead of the fat. I want to be sore every day! I've got to keep up running even when it gets cold. I'm happy though because I think I found a really sweet gym nearby for only 30 euros a month! Plus, my roommate just told me about a FREE workout session at the Uni Sport Center. Apparently, a bunch of people get together in a giant gym and run together, stretch together, and work abs n' stuff. I'm so excited!!

I hope you're all doing well too! THINK THIN!! :)

Current Mood: happy
Thursday, November 9th, 2006
11:13 am
Age: 24
Height: 5'3
Cw: 116
Lw: 86
Hw: 128
STG: 114
LTG: 98

I don't know if I'll be able to reach my goals... I already have my parents and my husband breathing down my neck because I've lost a couple pounds. Do any of you have tips for how to hide weight-loss? I luckily don't have to dodge a therapist right now; I just need to not visually look thinner.

The change isn't huge, but I've been hospitalized enough times that people jump on me if they even imagine a pound gone. I've been wearing baggy clothing, and it's not working. Here are some pics of what I'm trying to work with...

Here's me on Oct. 6th
Here's me today

I apologize for the nasty-ness of that first pic. That was the first pic I ever took of myself using my cell.

So, PLEASE!!! How can I hide that weight-loss from the people close to me?

Current Mood: annoyed
11:38 am
Drinking Blows
I hate how if I don't go extreme restricting, then I go overboard eating.

Yesterday was just straight up no good. I went out drinking with some friends last night and ended up getting pretty drunk. I made food (don't even wanna mention what it was) when I got home late at night. It's 8.5 hrs later and i'm STILL completely full from it - GROSS! But also good because i'm not going to eat barely anything today. Maybe a small bowl of granola cereal before bed just to help me sleep but pretty much nothing else.

Conclusion: drinking = bad

It's just too damn hard to control yourself when you're drunk.

Fresh start is today.

We can all do this!!!!

Current Mood: annoyed
Wednesday, November 8th, 2006
11:39 pm
Name: Mel
Age: 19
Height: 5'3
Cw: 170
Lw: 140

Hey everyone! It wasn't until my doctor's appointment last week that I realized how disgusting I am. It's my second year in college and I've always been fat but now I am just disgusting. The doctor noticed I've gained weight and was questioning if I had a thyroid problem but I pretty much was freaked out and denied having any of the symptoms, although thinking about it now a lot I have had. Any way, I need help. I'll try to limit what I eat but I am an over eater and it would be best to just stop eating all together. I am too weak to do this on my own and I think being in this community will really help me stop being such a fat ass and start loosing weight. I just started keeping a food diary so hopefully that will help and any tips and encouragment from yall here would be apreciated. I need to do this. Thanks and good luck everyone!
Tuesday, November 7th, 2006
5:47 pm
Name: Caroline
Age: 20
Height: 5'5"
Cw: 130
Lw: 123
Hw: 138
STG: 125
LTG: 115

Hi everybody! I've been following communities like this for a LONG time, but I never had to guts to step up and join one myself, until now. If I have to be classified in a category, you could call me ednos. I go through cycles of overeating, starvation, eating normal and over and over again.....

It seems to never end and i'm SICK of it! I'm going to do something about my appearance and how I feel about myself. I'm here looking for support from others but I'm here also to support you guys! We can do this!!!

Current Mood: hopeful
Monday, October 30th, 2006
12:44 pm
I'm down to 116 which feels nice, but I think I'm ending my liquid fast today. I'm happy because I miss teddy grahams, but I have also felt so . . . good about things in the last couple of days. Proud of myself, like I've done something that takes discipline and strength. And I think that will go right out the window at the first bite of food. Oh well. Hope to be down another pound by Friday, so wish me luck!
Sunday, October 29th, 2006
3:16 pm
sooo i gave up on restricting for like a week, thinking well i don't hate my body that bad, maybe i can eat normal. but i was wrong. i hate my body and eating normally makes me hate myself more. so back to restricting. i'm gonna be 110 by the end of november.
Wednesday, October 25th, 2006
6:28 pm
i decided to do a liquid fast because i wasn't sure how an all out fast would go. sooo today all i had was a glass of juice at 80 calories! and tonsss of water. hope i can keep it up.
7:17 pm
So far . . .
So far I've been really good today--I've had about half a mug of tea, and chicken broth watered down so it's not as fatty. Does anyone have any tips as to how to get past the really bad cravings? Thinspo works the best for me, but my roommate is kind of nosy, and I'm afraid of opening it. I've heard that maybe cleaning works . . . ?

And also, is there any better way to go about this than sticking to tea and broth and water? And how do you guys usually break fast?

Anyway, I hope that you guys are doing well too . . . how's your progress?

Current Mood: happy
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